Well, It's been another year and here I am updating. I re-read through all my old weblogs. It's crazy how much you change without realizing it. Until recently I was not the fun-loving outgoing crazy girl I used to be. It finally came the time for me to let the things from the past stay and settle in the past instead of continuing to live in a dust cload. The only way you can change as a person is really admitting your faults. That is what I'm going to do right now.

I'm a bad friend. I'm loyal and will always be there when you need it but I wont answer my phone because I don't feel like talking. I've lost my confidence and that has spoiled my friendships I've also lost some close freiends just from losing myself. I changed into this auto-pilated plane and  I seem to have missed a lot. I do know what I do wrong when it comes to friends. I do care about every single one of you believe it or not...

My moms divorce changed me. When I was 14 and just starting at shhs I honestly had no idea what was going on. When my mom told me she was going to get divorced I wasn't suprised. I'm glad she had enough courage to actually leave. We moved to beaverton to get away from memories and I had to start at a new highschool. I was out late meeting up with older people. I managed to get out of highschol without having done any hard drugs but I think that was my only accomplishment. besides some of my closest friends. It has taken me so long to find myself. As much as I hate to admit it I made some bad choices in highschool that I hope my children never make. Nothing that is that bad but kids shouldnt be out THAT late. It also lead to eating too much.

Food is a comfort to me. I felt alone so I ate. Food was my constant in my life. Food had become so overpowering to me. I remember the first time I ate a whole side of chips ahoy. I can pinpoint that exact moment when my control of my weight went to hell. How can something control you like that?

I'm lazy. I really am. I can't seem to do all my laundry at one time and the disorganization drives me absolutely crazy but I can't seem to grab old of being who I want. I buy organizers and go on cleaning sprees but my messiness and eating habits are just trying to show me whats going wrong on the inside.

I finally feel like I'm making headway and breaking free from my bad habits. I'm actually forgiving,loving, now learning from past mistakes and really loving who I am inside again.

Wow Let's see if I can sum up everything that has happened since June 6th

Well the summer started whoopee it was an awesome summer, a lot happened there was a lot of laughs and it was filled with drama you know the drama that we all secretely love :)

I had an ex boyfriend who was a freaking pshyco, chased me around for 2/3rds of the summer ICCCCCKKKKK I'm so happy that's over, There wasn't really any full summer romances haha

At my work the owner had to call it quits with the franchise and decided to move on to other areas of business and left the stone and all us eager teenagers. The manager was really the only old time thing that was left at the place and then he moved on as well. We have a new manager who is AMAZING, she actually does her job in no offense to the last manager, he just didn't know how to do his job.

Back to the summer romance thing haha I did meet someone near the end of the summer who is still in my life,.. it's a relationship where it's almost easy beside the few bumps in the road, it gives me butterflies haha...I feel positive about it :)!!

School has been pretty awesome, it has for sure flown by extreamly fast,.. I mean its almost over for that matter and I'm getting REALLY hyped for school you know college :)

I'm just excited to move into the next chapter of my life....

that's basically it for the moment,.. I bet I'll realize I missed something and throw it in there. So yeah hope everyone else has been doing well and hope the new year has been treating everyone well.

anyway

love you all

*annes*

Time changes people

Isnt it weird how at one point you really are liking someone like when you are dating them but after a few months you become distant after a weird falling out and you are never close like you once were

you might have dated someone at your school and saw them walking by after you had broken up and it's a weird feeling not being able to just run up to them and hug them or whatever,.. I had that for a while but not from school

hmm ,.. jerks

I didn't go to work today blah stupid job,... it's fun tho, sometimes

OMG, My friend clay eneded up in the hospital but we found out later just because he has mono. I feel bad for the guy :(

I hung out with chris for a little today,.. that was fun :)

I'm kind of tired  so I'm gonna sleep :)

call the cell

xoxo annie